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[Mar. 11th, 2008|05:52 pm] |
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so today i took the english CAHSEE my first time around I'll have other chances if i dont pass it the first time, and then tomorrow is the math one. I'm pretty nervous, because math isn't my best. Whatever anyways I'm sucking in drivers ed, I didnt pass on the final in the class, so I took it again and still didn't pass so now I have to take it again. its pissing me the fuck off. My bird is being really obnoxious right now and yelling his head off he is rally making me mad. Today's the first day that I've been stressed in such a long asssss time. |
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| one week |
[Mar. 6th, 2008|06:56 pm] |
since i last wrote in my livejournal :/
so my birthday is coming up sort of its about 20-22 days away. I think im going to go to alcatraz :DDDDDD hella excited I have never been there before.
Lately me and my BFF melinda have been ditching our last period classes, we've gotten away with it like all the times lol we have so much fun.
Also lately I've been thinking about kaylin alot,I guess some part of me still likes her and misses her. I kind of have mixed emotions towards her its like one part of me is thinking " i fucking hate her, why should i talk to her" and the other part of me is thinking " i hellof miss her and wish we would talk more and blah blah blah" i dont know its weird. Im jealous of every girlfriend she gets, like i wish i was hers or whatever. We went out once, and broke up with me without ever giving me a reason. I hella liked her.
Anyways, enough of that.
I cant think of anything else that i need to add.
If i do, I'll come back and edit this post or whatever |
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| about today: |
[Feb. 24th, 2008|04:54 pm] |
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i was supposed to hangout with my boyfriend chris, I was waiting for him to call me back, i was just sitting at burger king, did he ever call me back? haha nooooooooooooooooope. oh well at least i got to see jessica and matt and james today :] oh and james got me stogs for mee..again lol. |
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| tonight |
[Feb. 22nd, 2008|06:21 pm] |
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i was having doubts about going to that ru36 showwww but alot of my friends are going and i wannna see lacie, i havent seen her in what a couple of months? so yeahhhhh i decided to go, it should be fun :]]]]]
grrrrrr i was hoping on getting fucked up this weekend.. |
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| shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit |
[Feb. 16th, 2008|08:37 pm] |
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My mind is such a blur right now.
I fucking hate this.
He's just letting me dangle here.
I'm seriously not a fucking patient person when it comes to shit like this.
im so frustrated right now, anddddddddddddd he's not replying to my messages or text messages. FUCKING AWESOME. uhhhhhhhhhhh son.
so yeah my head hurts like a bitch, someone buy me fucking ciggaretes!! |
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| Cody<3 |
[Feb. 13th, 2008|09:55 pm] |
is amazing. I helllllllllllof like this guy. no joke. I've been talking to him for two years. He gives the best hugssssss, he's like a teddybear MY teddybear. It's like he's mine, but not offically or whatever LOL. Tomorrow is valentines day and i geuss you can say that he's my valentine<3 cody valin, your perfect in every single way.
oh yeah, so today me and my bestie ditched 4th period, took the bus got off at burger king then walked to riteaid then to albertsons then her friend came and met up with us i didnt stay much longer because i wanted to go see jessica :DDDD |
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[Feb. 10th, 2008|05:38 pm] |
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was so much funnn :DD hung out with kara!! seriously im hellllof going to start going out to concord more :] oakley/antioch/brentwood is just getting like hella old you know? to sum it all up kara is my shoplifting partnet, that'll never change lol |
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| today! |
[Feb. 5th, 2008|06:21 pm] |
wasssssss sick, haha before i accidently typed dick hahahahaha
so today, i took a thizzzz pill with my boyfrienddddddd :OOOOOOOO
yaaaaaa man. |
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| confusion |
[Feb. 1st, 2008|06:26 pm] |
i dont know where my life is going.
right now i just started crying for some reason.
i miss my best friend, jared.
i kind of just want to move away, far away and start fresh.
there's really not much worth staying here for, except a few select people.
i should be happy, with the person im with, but somehow it just doesnt feel right.
my hair is being so retarded lately.
i feel like no one cares about me, im not sure why.
i kind of feel depressed? i've been taking my pills so i shouldnt be.
fuck i dont know.
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| oh dear. |
[Feb. 1st, 2008|04:05 pm] |
how i miss that boy tyler :[
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I'm used to it, shit like that always happens to me.
the day before he asks me out, he finds out he has to go to stockton.
I could name off more times, but I dont feel like it.
So It's one month till my birthday and 10 days till the warriors basketball game with my brother. |
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| another one for today. |
[Jan. 30th, 2008|06:31 pm] |
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There's a guy BOY that broke my heart, this is the hardest it's been for me to get over someone. He made me feel so special, he made me smile and laugh so much that my face and cheeks started to hurt. When I didnt talk to him, I went crazy. No one made me laugh as much as he did. I trusted him. I cared about him. Then, one day he told me he couldnt do it anymore, it wouldnt work out between us. I found that a load of bullshit, if he had really cared about me like he said he did he would keep trying. The thing was his mom didnt want to drive him to my house, because of where I live. I was willing to wait to like actually be with him untill he could drive then he could come and see me everyday. But nope he just said he was done, oh yeah and he started to like someone else. Imagined how I felt hearing that? I should hate him, But i cant. I care about him so much, it hurts thinking about how things used to be and how things could of been. |
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| ughhhhh man |
[Jan. 30th, 2008|05:05 pm] |
im sickkkkkkk :[ my stomach hurts and my head hurts.
im eating applesauce right now.
And im at the most confusing point in my life right now,
not really but its pretty confusing.
I dont know theres's quite a few guys that like me (not trying to brag or anything) and their all hellllllla cute and hella cool and shit im just like..wtfffffffff do i do..i have a boyfriend and dont get me wrong i do like him alot..but im still unsure about things. Scratch that, I love him..but im not sure if this feels right or not.
*sighs*
buttttttt on the plus side me and kara are okay :]] |
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[Jan. 20th, 2008|08:18 pm] |
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soooooo I'm starting to feel so much better about everything..im beginning to move on and get over it. its the past and there's nothing i can do. sure she was the best best friend i've ever had and it sucked losing her but i cant sit and dwell on it forever. Today i went and hung out with lucas and george and his little brother adam. it was dopeeeeeee. I miss wandering around oakley. |
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[Jan. 19th, 2008|07:58 pm] |
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im bored at homeeeee drinking chocolate milk.
lately i've been drinking alot of chocolate milk.
yee son.
so this weekend..was supposed to be pretty eventful.
but so far its pretty boring.
yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh boy. |
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| hella happy bro<3 |
[Oct. 15th, 2007|09:32 pm] |
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wow finally,I'm happy again :D I have an amazing boyfriend,and girlfriend. I've started to realize that if roger didnt love me enough to stop smoking weed for me and put me first,maybe he just didng love me enough? I dont know,but oh well. Today was the first day back from breakkkkkkkk eh it was aiiight. I didnt get my lanyard thing,i should be getting it tomorrowwwwwwwwww? So yeah im pretty much content with my life right now. Roger will always be in the back of my mind. Me and my BFF have been hanging out hellllllla much,were hella closer than ever bro. I swear,she's like family to me<3 my little sister. lolz people came up to her and were like are you and kaila sisters???
ahahaha that made my day! |
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[Oct. 11th, 2007|01:24 am] |
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so i talked to roger on the phone tonight, at some point i was like i miss you and he said back i miss you too and then he was like not too be a dick or anything and im high but you know were not going to get back together right? that seriously pissed me off so bad,i just hung up on him. Honestly how the fuck could you say that to me? thats shit that i dont want to hear, I still love him so damn much.
BUT anyways,haha i love my BFF karalee slater so much :] she inspired me to start using my livejournal again ahahahahahaha. Mhmmmmm so I'm listening to All Time Low,i fucking love them bro.
the scene aesthetic makes me smile<3
LOLZ all i can say to roger is good luck finding someone in lame ass turlock babe<3
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH |
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| it hurts.. |
[Oct. 8th, 2007|05:42 pm] |
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it hurts hearing the words "whore" or "slut" coming out of the mouth of someone, that you are head over heels in love with ...it kills me when i listen to that voicemail when he says im a whore or when i read that text message..i can understand why he's mad at me. But that doesnt mean he needs to call me names. I miss him so much..i miss how things used to be with us. He's still the only one I could ever see myself with. Why did it have to turn out like this? |
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| kkjlkjldksfjal |
[Oct. 7th, 2007|08:07 pm] |
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ugh, im still shaking from being so mad..
my left is bothering me for some shit, i don't like it :/
this break has been so fucking lame, w/e i hope my mom gets that house.
im starting to hate oakley, and people in it. If i do move, i think i will go to antioch high. FreeDUMB is lame, so are the people there. Lately I don't even feel like i have anyone; that sounds hella cheesy but its true. idk how to explain it. im so tired of sitting around at home..it sucks. whatever. |
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[Oct. 5th, 2007|06:11 pm] |
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i need to talk to roger..I havent talked to him all day. I got a missed call from earlier, apparently he has his phone back. I call him back doesnt answer and i leave a voicemail. I try again later, still doesnt answer :/ idk maybe its on silent? ugh i just want/need to talk to himmmmmmm. My head hurts like a BITCH. I want to go buy cake batter so i can make a cake for Karalee. ahaha hahaha im watching not another teen movie! and im drinking kool aid. im craving a bowl of icecream,vanilla with chocolate syrup. this has turned into me just rambling on about random shit. I watched the new episode of degrassi, it was dope. |
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[Oct. 4th, 2007|10:09 pm] |
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So right this moment I'm on the phone with my boyfriend :] and i feel like writing about him. Ahahaha he's such a dork, he say's he makes perfect sense but he doesnt lol. Just listening to his voice rambling on about shit makes my day.He makes me happy, more than anyone ever has, and more than anyone ever will. He's all I want :] He's my everything and so much more. He puts a smile on my face when i really do need to smile and im having a bad day. Actually he puts that smile on my face everyday just knowing he's mine. He's adorable, his eyes are amazing,I can just look into them all day. This boy is extremely ticklish, i love tickling him and seeing that smile on his face when he tries to push me away from him. |
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